The Understanding of Autism

Hello,

My name is Lucas Forbes and I am 24 years old. I was diagnosed with autism when I was in primary school and when I found out, life became very difficult for me. Not many people understand autism and they can just see it as bad behaviour. All through my school life I was bullied and laughed at by the sound of my voice and I would just walk out of the classroom because I was upset and no one understood why. My mum was with me through most of secondary school but I still didn’t have many friends and I was never invited to house parties because I would just stay around the parents and not communicate with anyone else. I still feel like I am always babied and teased even to this day. I don’t think I will ever find true love because I have never had a true girl as my friend as they all think I am clingy and after one thing when that is not the case, like everyone else thinks and I would never disrespect a woman. I always try too hard and they all just see me as a friend and it gets me angry my brother can find all the right girls and all the girls I have been with just use me to get what they want. People just want to take advantage of my good nature and I feel like I an an easy target which is why I always feel isolated. Nothing does not seem to work out for me for example with relationships because of the social communication problems that I have to deal with on a daily basis. I am working part time earning my own money but I feel like this world is always going to be against me whatever I do and say whether it’s good or bad. At the end of the day all I want is for people to accept me for the person I am, no matter what good or bad (hopefully not that many) choices I make. Whenever I always feel the need to start a tantrum, it’s because we can remember what has been said in the past sometimes and it gets replayed in our mind sometimes. I hate feeling alone, even though when someone asks me to do something, it feels worse then what it is but once I get going it’s not that bad. When this happens, people think I’m having a go at them when I’m not. Lastly, I feel like everyone is avoiding me because they don’t know how to deal with someone with autism and that upsets me so people wonder why we have tantrums and lash out, this is one of the main reasons why.

To hear more about my experiences, please read my blog: Autismawareness2016.tumblr.com

By Lucas Forbes in Coventry, England